My Progress

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Hitting the reset button

It's been a month since I went to a weigh-in. It's been more than that since I worked out. I haven't just fallen off the wagon, I've failed myself bigtime. I've backslided. A lot. I ate some ridiculous stuff from day to day. I didn't even dare to track that garbage, but rest assured I had a few 100-150 point days in the past 31 days.

So great, I've erased a ton of progress. I don't have an official weigh-in and I really hope this looks worse than it is, but this morning, the home scale said somewhere in the range of +30. A pound a day. I've really shot myself in the foot here, but whatever, I caught it, I've recognized that I'm nowhere near ready to do this on my own and I'm ready to get back on track.

I have today and 2 more days left on my internship, then I'm unemployed (and yes, I realize that reality may have contributed to my backsliding). I still have a membership at 24hour fitness and I'm obviously going to have a lot of free time on my hands while I continue the job hunt. I think I'm going to get back to the workout routine slowly and begin incorporating some weights, core training and group-x classes as I ease myself into 3-hour-a-day workouts.

Today, I'm back to tracking 101 (a bit apropos, this is my 101st post). I even measured my cereal and milk. Tonight, I'll read through my week 1 material and tomorrow, I'm going back to meetings. I'll go Saturday morning as well for my official morning weigh-in. I keep telling myself I can't do this without meetings and without blogging, so I really can't blame anyone but myself for failing so hard when I stopped doing both. I don't know if I've rediscovered my motivation or not, but we'll see.

It took me a month to put all this on, it'll take me probably 3 to get it back off, but I'm going to try as hard as I can.


Tricia said...

Welcome back :) Sucks about the internship being over, I know how much you seemed to enjoy your work there. Hopefully you'll find something soon. As for the poundage, it's counted, so move on. Sounds like you've got a good plan in action, so hop to it!

bbubblyb said...

Welcome back!!! I'm sure the ending of the job is a biggie for you. Hang in there, you know what to do.

arielcircleofnine said...

yes welcome back!!! Ive been wondering how you were. Ive been where you are, backslides happen when life happens and we fight back when ready. You sound ready to move on.
BTW, I got laid off a month and a half ago. I have been using the free time to be better at the weight loss stuff, the exercise stuff. We have more time!!! It feels good to focus on myself, so yep use the time. Endorphins are great for stress relief!!!
Cheering you on :-)

Actual Scale said...

If you hold tight to your determination then you will take off what you've recently gained & continue tomake progress.

You've already shown that you can do it, now the hard part is to just keep on-keeping on.

Best of luck with the job search. Economy sucks, but hopefully the right job is just waiting for you to find it.

Tony said...

I bet a lot of that is water weight. Nice to see you posting again.

Twice the Man said...

I have had to deal with some things in life and not been on track the past several weeks either, but my weight is up not so considerably. It is scarry how fast it came climb up, but you can overcome and will.

Ron said...

Glad you decided to get back on track before it got any worse.... next time.... get back on track sooner!!!!

~ugly girl with a beautiful heart~ said...

You didn't fail. If you hadn't recognized and gotten your ass back in gear, THAT would have been a fail. I welcome you back wholly and hope to see some more posts. I've missed your blogging!!!

We're here for you, it's never easy, but you've got support!

The Fat Girl said...

While I believe in technicality that you could do it without blogging or the meetings, because I believe you can do anything you set your mind to, I think that it makes it MUCH easier to do it with support. I'm so thankful for the support network I have.. family & friends (including my blogging friends). Support is critical and as long as you have the time to blog and the money to go to the money, you'd be cheating yourself not too. It's a journey, and you are an inspiration to me. I know you will continue to do great!

*Fitcetera* said...

Good to see you back.
Please stay. :D